Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Should I stay or should I go?

There are only three days left before the party. I just returned from Cali last week and honestly I am not looking forward to a six hour trip this weekend.

As a woman in the industry, I often wonder if it's because of my wonderful insight, great conversation and strong intellectual presence that allows me to hold the attention of key players in this game....or could it be that I look amazing in my form fitting, tailored dress, ruby red lipstick and red, two toned heels?

It can really be exhausting because as a woman I feel as though I have to work extra hard. Not to prove my worth, but to keep redirecting attention to what is coming out of my mouth from images of what my mouth could be doing other than talking.

I have been shocked to silence (yes, I have been at a loss for words) if only for a split second, at some of the conversations...blatant conversations, I have had with A&R people...who, in their words, were just "being real" with me. According to this one in particular, I won't mention any names, either I had to be managing incredible talent, or suck a mean d*** if I wanted to get anywhere in the music industry.

Wow...for those that know me, I graciously handed him my sampler CD of my artists and told him he could either listen to it, or toss it like a Frisbee...but he will not stop me from doing what I set out to do. Give him a CD. I also informed him that unfortunately for him, he is not the person I need to be working with and no one has any control over my success but me (as long as I follow God's plan, that is)

That is just ONE example...as I look back, this has really been a crazy ride so far and as we move closer to the goal, I expect it will only get worse. But, no matter what comes my way, I will always be me. It may take me a little longer to get where I'm going, but I will get there....looking hot in my form fitting, tailored dress, ruby red lipstick and my red, two toned heels....morals in tact.

I will use this blog as a personal journal of my trip to success, and it will be a trip...but also as a learning place for those who are on the same or similar path.



Edified,

Jai

3 comments:

  1. Javonnie ...
    This is gooood stuff, great words, absolutely important for all to hear and feel... and I feel it.

    Within the industry, I imagine the "thickness of misogyny" can be suffocating at times... but you are built for this, ready for this, talented, passionate, and faithful... an incredibly impressive woman.

    As you say,..."I often wonder if it's because of my wonderful insight, great conversation and strong intellectual presence that allows me to hold the attention of key players in this game....or could it be that I look amazing in my form fitting, tailored dress, ruby red lipstick and red, two toned heels? "

    I'm smiling at this, because I know you are all of the above and much more, truly blessed with EVERYTHING required of greatness... I'm just happy to know you, privileged to encourage and support you, and as a friend, grateful to have a front row seat on your personal journey to amazing success, ...watching your rise, watching you soar, morals intact.

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  2. Javonnie I love this blog. I will continue to follow your blog and make comment. I am glad that you are not willing to bow to sexism in the Music Industry and/or any Industry for that matter. What makes him think, that you would not be managing talented artists anyway. Or does he think that is your cover (music manager or music administrator), when really you just another tramp willing to sell herself short with using her body. Um he got you twisted. LOL. I am proud of you, in addition, proud that you are bold enough to put your thoughts out here for the world to see. Keep on being the Queen that you are in the A & R business.

    Ne'

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  3. Yes... I agree with our cousin Shenee', never stoop to poop! lol

    I think we should talk about relationships Men V Women...

    You know what I mean J... xox

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